Memories

I haven't noticed it but it seems like this would be the very first time that I would write something about the past. I think it's because of the incident yesterday that actually made me remember about this. So that you'll be able to get what i mean, i'll give you a hint about what happened yesterday...

Socsci class has ended and although things are piling up on us, my friends and i found ourselves with nothing to do(atleast that's how i felt). By then, we were discussing if we should watch Saved. Roan was able to watch the movie but FF and I weren't, so we urged roan to actually watch it again, in which she refused. Things happened then roan went her way and so did FF. Here's the sad part... I found myself alone. it was an awkward but a really familiar feeling...being alone wondering where you should go and what you should do. What I did? I went to a cybercafe (not an interesting part...). It was until that night that ff texted me that I was able to recognized that kind of feeling... i was the same feeling that I have felt when i was in second year highschool... (Finished with my introduction atlast!)

You see, I have a group of friends in highschool, or should I say since grade five elementary. There are three of us (and since they don't know this blog exist, it wouldn't hurt if I name them...) Me, Eun Ji and Roselle. Our group started to exist through animes...that's our common interest by then...At first everything was absolutely fine. We are the Tres Inseparables (is that right?)

If there's someone I look up to as a friend, it would be Eun Ji (I'm so not gonna give her my URL). She's very talented in Math, and it so happen that i have special admiration to those who excel in math. You see, during my early years in elementary and highschool, I don't like Math as well... things change...

Roselle on the other hand, has all that artistic stuff. Ofcourse we are all aristic, but Roselle's art by that time is so far greater than mine.(i'm so humble...) So, as you may see, I have two friends that i look up to...

With that I came to realize what my friends are for me. You are my friend because I look up to you and you have qualities that i admire. However, these qualities don't have any standards or limitations. Maybe it's just a sense of being complete, your friends having qualities that you wanted but unfortunately, you don't have them. so literally, my friends complete me.

Opening another view... My friends are also my rivals... in highschool, if you want a good college afterwards, you have to fight for it. Eun Ji was better than I am. during second year, i am at top 5, she's at top 4. It's fine with me by then. Now, there came a point where Eun Ji has to transfer to a different school(she gave me no clear reason as to why she's leaving) and I tell you, it's quite far away, like a highschool somewhere in GreenHills, San Juan. Yeah, that's right. From Bataan to Manila. Anyway, being a bestfriend, it struck me hard (i'm quite selfish with my friends at that time...). It struck me hard that i found my self uttering a joking to her, "don't worry, i prayed that you won't pass the entrance exam"... (stupid isn't it?) Well, it had a negative effect on her, and she refuses to talk to me for a couple of days. Actually, it's a desperate prayer, given Eun Ji's capacity, she'll surely pass the test (i've learned that she graduated highschool as that damned school's valedictorian...) So now, a bestfriend is gone...and oh, Roselle found another buddy by then...and I am alone.

You may think that i'm overreacting with things, but really, i was bothered by those things then. All those things happened when i am at 2nd year highschool.

When my third year in highschool started, i have nobody with me. I feel worthless because i was a nobody by that time ( i belong to the top ten, but it's not a big deal). Although i have no buddy by then, my classmates and i are close (but still, i go to the canteen alone, sit at the corner alone and do other stuff alone...). It was the time that i told myself that i should prove my worth. I even write it down on paper and post it on my cabinet, it says " Prove your worth...beat them all!". The first quarter ends, i became the third honor (top 3). By the way, since Eun Ji has already left by then, i make it sure that i'll do good in math in order to give our present valedictorian a worthy competitor... it would be unfair if she'll get the best in math without any resistance...

So that's it, i studied, got good grades, people noticed me at last...'coz they came to me and ask some help with their projects and assignments and lots of other stuff. So, the next thing that i felt was that i am being taken for granted. I share everything... ranging from simple answers in recitation, assignments(even quizzes) to researches because i'm not very competitive. Thing is, you share everything you can, but when it's time for them to do the same, you won't get any...as i told you, my friends are also my rivals.

In contrast to everything i'm saying, our class is not bad at all, there are just times when i think about things and realize stuff...

On fourth year, i made it to the second honor(salutatorian) for the 1st 2nd and 3rd quarters. When 4th quarter came (4th quarter accounts for everything...)i lost by 0.05 points to this friend of mine(i became the first honorable)... it's fine with me, ... she deserves it.

That the lonely part of my highschool life, you'll have to wait for the happy part... mind you, it's really funny.

If ever you're wondering why i wrote such a long and perhaps boring entry such as this, it's because i want you to see my past, why i became me, how i developed my strengths and what my weaknesses are. One of my weaknesses are my friends, you may not notice but no matter how insensitive i am to other people, i am very sensitive with my friends.

Another weakness... I don't show my weaknesses(ironic isn't it?).
A friend of mine once told me that i'm really good at hiding things...maybe that's my line of expertise. It's hard really. Nobody, except me, knows something about the things i've written in here (and you whoever you are reading this...).

I know i still have other weaknesses but i can't put my finger in it. Maybe next time...

it's me again...

know what? i am having this really strong urge to plague you once again with thr result of my personality test taken just awhile ago... but the results is just the common thing, so i did not bother anymore. instead, i decided to write something...

i've been reading other people's blogs lately, and i can't help but wonder on how easily they say their feelings and emotions on their blogs... like in reading it, you can feel the anger of that person. You see, i don't think i can do that in this blog... if you are my friend and you happen to observe me a bit, you'll probably see that i have a reserved personality. i don't know , i just can't talk about things so damned openly. anyway, there's been several attemps. i actually tried to write something extraordinary in here awhile ago but i erased them before i have a chance to change my mind. maybe next time...

ok, so much for that, let's change the topic into something merrier...

i'm happy and content on how life goes for me... i have nice friends, nice school, nice block and blockmates... so i have every reason to be happy. by the way, my laptop arrived and with it is a printer/scanner, and a digicam (not to mention tons of chocolates and stuff, but my mother has taken them home...shucks). so i have all the reason to be happy ...

sad part is, if i'm happy, i eat a lot... when i'm depress, i sleep a lot... so ... you know what happen next...ugh!

maybe i will end this nonsense now... i have a math class to attend to...

Me...Me...Me...part 2

Because of some poeple around me, I found myself doing a test on colorgenics like mood analysis test, finding your archetypal self and the like. Most unfortunately, the results are unbelievably correct... read on...

Have I told you that I'm tired of describing myself... yeah... I guess so... so let the test results speak for themselves and think... think if you really know who I am...

HERE WE GO!!!

Result: Mood Analysis
You are longing for some love and affection at this time - not that you have been deprived of tender loving care - but there are times when everyone needs to try something new or to go 'somewhere' else to perhaps experience that little extra 'understanding'.
You are a true extrovert, frivolous and outgoing. You need to feel in control of any situation. If matters are not proceeding according to plan you tend to get extremely irritable and perhaps become difficult to live with.
The way things are, you feel that you are stuck in a rut and there is not much you can do about it. You feel frustrated and inhibited but if you can find a way to let yourself go, you may find that things aren't quite so bad as perhaps you thought they were. One consolation is that since you are an extremely emotional individual, with the right person you may be able to release some of that frustration and tension with some mutual tender loving care.
You are being unduly influenced by the situation that is all around you. You do not like the feeling of loneliness and whatever it is that seems to separate you from others. You know that life can be wonderful and you are anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to live it to the full. You therefore resent any restriction or limitations that are being imposed on you and you insist on going it alone.
You don't like conflict and you endeavor to avoid criticism. You want to do your own thing and to be able to decide what is right for you. You have considerable personable charm - and this is used with considerable effect on those that keep your company.

YOUR ARCHETYPAL SELF
The Dandelion
The dandelion sees the magic of the world and is aloft in an overwhelming sense of union with the beauty of the universe. This is often translated into a fluency with the language, a poetic sensibility and an ability to see beyond the measure of the day to day. The inner beauty of the animate world often preoccupies the Dandelion, a sense that there is a union in all the life forms of nature.

Because of the ever-present reality of the abstract world, a dandelion may often seem to be living in a higher realm, or to be not-of-this-earth. Prone to fantasy and the imagination, Dandelion children often create entire legions of imaginary playmates. In an adult this can on occasion lead a Dandelion to imagine interior lives for friends and associates that are near-complete fabrications based on the Dandelion's fears or hopes for the future.

Psychological Analysis Test Results

Your Mood: At the moment you want a break from routines and to experience some sort of liberation. You are looking for freedom inside and relief from restriction outside. You are not in the mood for mundane boring tasks.You feel more determined than usual and are not prepared to put up with unnecessary delay or restriction. Not in the mood to be told what to do you resent anyone trying to control your behavior. You do not want to be held back at this time.

Your Present Situation: Your present situation is making it difficult to relax. You feel a need to be constantly observant, watching everything that is going on around you. This makes it difficult for you to let your hair down and be spontaneous. You are not comfortable with the barrier that you have created around yourself and would love to breakout in a completely new way.You’re afraid…afraid to reveal yourself to others. This fear is resulting in others assuming you are aloof and withdrawn. But deep down you crave the comfort of close friends though you don’t seem to know how to overcome your obstacles. You are prepared to make changes but need the proper tools.

Your Conflicts: You have no conflicts at the present time

That concludes everything I want to tell you, but I can't seem to find the right words... that composes about a third of who I really am, and I assure you that their true.

Me...Me...Me...

I'm tired of describing myself so I just post these things in here(they come in pics). Read them ok? Well, there are some things that I'm quite doubtful about (like that anime-hair...), but atleast they are good art...


You represent... apathy.
You don't really show any emotion. You can be
considered cruel and cold, but you just don't
really care about anything. This is just the
way you are... you're quite a challenge to get
close to, and others may perceive you as
boring.


What feeling do you represent?
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You are Form 0, Phoenix: The Eternal.

"And The Phoenix's cycle had reached
zenith, so he consumed himself in fire. He
emerged from his own ashes, to be forever
immortal."

Some examples of the Phoenix Form are Quetzalcoatl
(Aztec), Shiva (Indian), and Ra-Atum
(Egyptian).
The Phoenix is associated with the concept of life,
the number 0, and the element of fire.
His sign is the eclipsed sun.

As a member of Form 0, you are a determined
individual. You tend to keep your sense of
optomism, even through tough times and have a
positive outlook on most situations. You have
a way of looking at going through life as a
journey that you can constantly learn from.
Phoenixes are the best friends to have because
they cheer people up easily.


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You are like the snow fairy, she is very beautiful,
she has the power to make things beautiful, but
She is sometimes quite selfish, and spends most
of the time she should be using her magic
staring at her self in the mirror. Other than
the fact that she is vain and selfish. She is
a nice person, when she IS actually using her
magic, her powers are great, and she is very
helpful. Well that's most of the tings about
the snow fairy, can you relate to some of them?
You probably can, because that is what this
quiz is for!


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Goddess of the Moon. Beauty, yet a sadness lurks
about you at times. But hey, pain is beauty,
right?


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Spike.


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Congrats! Your a Pure Angel! Angels, as far as most
of them go, are all compatabile creatures, but
Pure ones simply are symbols of God. Pure
Angels always appear when a child is born, when
a rainbow is seen, or when someone shares their
first kiss. They never grow old, an can appear
in the shape of a naked woman with white, bold
wings. Pure angels are the carriers of god, and
show their love to everyone in the world.


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You are the Aqua Marine Mermaid. You are pure and
brave. Strong and True. Your best freind is
your seahorse, your steed. You have fought many
battles in your own life and in the sea. No
matter what challenge you overcome it.
Congratulations there are very few of you.
Would you rate my quiz for I am brave too?


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You are naturally born with a gift, whether it be
poetry, writing or song. You love beauty and
creativity, and usually are highly intelligent.
Others view you as mysterious and dreamy, yet
also bold since you hold firm in your beliefs.

What Type of Soul Do You Have ?
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You're the cheerful smile,the one that's truly
happy with almost everything you do and would
never cahnge your life.

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You have Blue Wings! You are artistic and highly
creative. Others are amazed by your imaginative
ideas, and the way you speak so smoothly. You
are very social, but you like talking
face-to-face, instead of the phone. You love
dancing, Writing, acting, drawing, singing,
anything that requires artistic style. You have
many friends, and are popular because of your
unique style. Though your jokes crack up
everyone around you, you often daydream about
many different things, lost in your own world.
Even though, you are optimistic, and remain
friendly and loved by others in reality, you
always like to visit your fantasy world for
some peace from the hectic world.

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You have a Calm Soul! Being calm and cool is what
you do best. You collected thoughts and always
positive attitude make you very bright and
logical. When theres a problem, you know how to
approach it, and solve it. Your friends rely on
you on their problems, and your shoulder for
their crying. You are peaceful, and enjoy
nature and freedom. You rarely get angry and
hardly scream, which makes you good with kids.
You seem to be in tune with the world and if
anything goes wrong, you always bounce back.

What Kind of SOUL do you posses? (For Girls only) Incredible Anime Pictures!
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Your a water Dragon! Congrats! Like ice dragons,
you are extremly powerful, but show it more
often. You are a leader, and like to speak your
opinion. AND, you are charming, swift, and
great at dancing, ou enjoy getting stuck in the
rain, playing with friends, and swimming
anywhere! Wat-ER you wating for?

What elemental dragon are you?
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You are the Moon card. Entering the Moon we enter
the intuitive and psychic realms. This is the
stuff dreams are made on. And like dreams the
imagery we find here may inspire us or torment
us. Understanding the moon requires looking
within. Our own bodily rhythms are echoed in
this luminary that circles the earth every
month and reflects the sun in its progress.
Listening to those rhythms may produce visions
and lead you towards insight. The Moon is a
force that has legends attached to it. It
carries with it both romance and insanity.
Moonlight reveals itself as an illusion and it
is only those willing to work with the force of
dreams that are able to withstand this
reflective light. Image from: Stevee Postman.
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Which Tarot Card Are You?
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You're a "Green Angel". You're one person
who is extremely protective of people around
you (especially your friends) and you'd end up
as a gaurdian angel. You're stronger than most
and aren't ashamed to show it. People know how
tough you are and don't dare to mess with you
when you get mad. You're real close with your
friends and couldn't live wihout them so even
in heaven, you want to help them. You know
they'd want you as a gaudian angel and you'd
love to be able to ensure safety of your
friends for yourself because you're on of those
"If you want something done right, do it
yourself" kind of person. (If you cannot
see the picture, go to my homepage and scroll
down near the bottom. I have the results from
all my quizess that have pics)


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You're a Winter. You very much enjoy your time
alone but do like other people's company
sometimes. You just need your space. You have a
few priviledged friends who saw past your
colder exterior to find the true you. You can
have pretty bad mood swings (though you hate to
admit it) so you could be soft one second then
storming around the next! But over all, you're
a very pleasant person once people take the
time to get to know you. You're a good friend
for in-depth talks. You're very talanted when
it comes to creative things.


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You're Elemant is Wind. You're light-hearted,
care-free, kind, sensative, and mysterious. You
have friends and most absolutely love you. You
can be calm and soothing one minute and ragging
in anger the next so no one wants to get on
your bad side. You are usually very calm though
so even in desperate situations, you seem to be
the most sane person present. You think things
through and consider the futur rather than the
present. You're beauty is inspiring and
magical. (please forgive me if you cannot see
the pics. If you go to my userpage then you can
see your result picture at the bottom)


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You're a mermaid. The stereotypical mermaid had a
long, fish-like tail that blended with the
human torso at the hips and almost white skin
with red hair or some off color like green or
blue. They were the most fantastic singers and
the siren type of mermaids would lure sailors
with their lovely lullaby into dangerous rocks.
They were mostly harmless and peacefull and
they were content to simply sit on the beach
combing their hair or in the water playing with
friends. They never wore clothes and were
always women. They were sweet and a little
deciteful at times. (If you cannot see the
picture, go to my userpage and look near the
bottom. There should be the picture and
description for all the results)


What Mystical Creature Are You? (Pictures)
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Your anime hair color is pink.


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harry potter


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You are the most important person in his life. He
would do anything to see you smile. Actually,
he would be the PERFECT boyfriend. Always
getting lost in your eyes, always treating you
like a princes and always saying a joke to make
you laugh your head off while he smiles at your
hysteric laughter. Yup, he is the person you
were destined to fall in love with.

It's back to the boring acad life again...

Yes! We've done it!

Yes folks, we finally presented Maturbating Minds. It was yesterday actually, but I haven't got the opportunity to update my blog ('coz i'm so tired). It's fun and exciting. Although it's not perfect, it's good enough, at least for me. Anyway, it's my first play here in batingaw and i'm proud to be a part of it. By the way, I spend the night at Batingaw's unit.

Now that the excitement is over, I have to face my academic duties. It will be boring as usual *sigh*, which reminds me that I have two additional obligations to do...

1. assignment in SocSci 1 ( tues, Sept 28 )
2. Creative Project in Soc Sci ( Oct 1 and Oct 5)

*another sigh* I know that I will be busy with all this stuff... but I know that it will be boring as well...
Even as I sit here typing, I know I'm bored already.
*anohter sigh*

I have a slight fever today but I attended my comm 1 class (coz i'm a very responsible student... ), but I don't think I can still attend my Math 1 class. And speaking of Math1 class, did you know that Roan actually accompany me to do a disappearing act during our previous Math class. Actually, it's her idea, but she's threatening me... she's just beside me... hehee just joking... i'm the one to blame. Anyway, it's just one of my dissapearing acts, i also performed one during our natsci class. It's the time that FF and Roan attended the debate thingy and actually won (Congrats!), but they decided to cut natsci and have some fun since they won... me, being left alone inside a boring natsci class decided that I should join the fun. But there's one major problem, we have a quiz by then, and i can't risk missing a quiz.

My motto in life, "If there's a problem, there's a solution."

Given this nature, I came up with a plan... that is to attend this natsci class, sit at the farthest end, take the quiz and DISAPPEAR! I manage to pull that one out and I joined FF nd Roan... what we did by that time, I can't remember...

I can't believe our play is about 28 hrs and 30 minute away... Im excited.

Speaking of our play, I failed to attend yesterday's practice, because I'm having a headache yesterday, and I can't face KuaAlbertus. i know that we'll be rehearsing and i have a feeling that I will do poorly. So that I won't feel guilty, roan and I decided to have some initiative and make 20 hawaiian lamps out of bbq sticks and japanese paper. Out of limited time, we only manage to make 4 hawaiian lamps. But then again, it's a start.

My muscles are numb, and roan is not attending her math class. If I don't attend my Math class, it's just fine. People know that even if I don't excel in math, it's still one of my strong points. Also, I told you earlier that i'm having a slight fever (I doubt it will remain as that...), so technically, I have an excuse. But roan here, doesn't have any excuses not to attend... but still... hhhhmmmmmm....

now what?

FF didn't attend comm1 and I have a feeling that he is a "no-show" is our Math class as well...

My goodness! What kind of peers do I got. We are becoming a bunch of disappearing, non-attending freshmen of up manila... tsk, tsk, tsk, this is not good. We are still freshies and we are already doing things like this...

(That's me scolding myself... here's me justifying myself...)

Well, on the contrary, classes are boring. Besides, we can easily learn through reading our reading materials. I've also learned that not all things are learned from books. Although books help, real life is around us. Besides even if I skip classes, i make sure that I know something about the lesson. Also, i know my responsibilities and priorities. here they are:

1. Masturbating Minds (sept. 18)
2. Documentation in Histo (Oct. 2)
3. Project in math ( oct. 1)
4 NSTP report part 1 (oct 23-26)
5. Long exam in Histo (Sept. 20)
6. Long exm in Natsci (Sept. 20)
7. aero dance in PE ( Sept. 24)
8. And many other stuffs to think about...

( if ever I failed to mention any, it means that it's not much to worry about...)

So you see, I got lots of stuff to do. just like anybody else. And I'm telling you I can do all that. Even though you think that I'm a happy-go-lucky sort of person, i think i'm responsinble as well. You may ask me if I have enough time, I say that there's always enough time... It's what we call in Socsci as Parkingson's Law that says that the amount of work time is equal to the available time. i hope you get my point, i don't want to elaborate things anymore.

So, let's have a slight change of subject. I told you that we didn't attend the rehearsals. But we decided to buy some things to create some props for the play, but i don't have the money, so I decided to visit the ATM. To my surprise, there's an additional money in there, about 11,000. I'm amaze, even until now. really. It came from my father. I don't know what compelled him to do so, but i'm thankful. I'll ask him if the money is mine (how I hope it's mine...).

This blog entry is quite long already. Perhaps it's the longest entry ever. And I'm suppose to be sick...

So I think things will have to end here...

Titleless

I can feel that i'm starting to be a blog addict... but anyway, it's what this thing's for...

It's saturday today and i attended my cdrc classes on a land far, far away. I expected that we'll be staying there until at least three in the afternoon. But due to some unusual circumstances, they let us leave at about, ten in the morning ( we've just been there for two hours...yipppeee!!). So we hurried out of that place before they change their minds. The thing is, i have no where to go. So I end up in here instead, typing once again, in this forsaken computer.

I tried to talked to a classmate of mine who's been having trouble with a friend of mine. But i haven't got much time.

I managed to figure out one thing about this two peeps. they both have high prides. I can't blame them, they have something to be proud of. I tried to tell this to my friend, who in turn, get quite annoyed with me...*sigh*

I don't wanna be an annoyance to anyone, either a friend or an acquaintance. But if I think I have to say something, I just simply have to say it. I hope you understand. It doesn't mean that i'm gonna force my point of view into you... that's not me. Me, I'll say what I want, but you'll have to do what you think is right. No wonder people never go to me for some comforting... only the rarest, closest friends does (they are the only one who can tolerate my rude behavior and temper...).

So much for advices. Let's go back to my usual self and routine. So, I'm finally home and typing here. Like i said, I can feel that i'm behaving like a blog addict. Maybe later, I'll be back to type some more. I have a feeling It will be a boring day.

Our play, Masturbating Minds, is coming soon. And I'm excited about it. I'm thinking of anything to write about, but i can't seem to think of anything right now. So I think it's my cue to leave...

Sayonara...

NoWuKnOw

damn that twenty questions!

To anybody who doesn't know what twenty questions is, this might help.

Twenty questions is a game. People will ask you any kind of question, and you are to answer those questions honestly. So, if you don't trust the person you're playing with, don't play at all...

So you see, my friends and i played this game. and i ask them what is their Deepest Darkest Secret. They told me what it is... and quite honestly, i was shaken by it. But things backfired, and i have to tell them my DDS too.

That was the problem.

On my other blog, i have written in there an article titled "Realme". i've written it under depressive circumstances, that's why its a bit sentimental. And i wriiten in there that nobody knows the real me. But now, thanks to that twenty questions, two souls know something about me... and i'm telling you, my DDS will shock you.

But don't go asking me what my DDS is. I won't answer you. Once, i've decided to keep that secret for a lifetime, but it would be unfair for those people who had the guts to share their own secrets. Besides, I trust those people. Trust is the very foundation of a relationship, whether it's romantic or platonic, or any other forms of relationships.

Going back to my article "Realme", what i said there is true. But i know, at least two people know something about me. But I regret to inform you, that there's more than meets the eye... it's only the tip of the iceberg. My personality holds many secrets. And I'm still looking for the person who can touch me deep enough to make me cry... I haven't cried for quite a long time.

To those two persons, you know who you are... thanks for the time and the trust. Thank you for understanding.

Forever Friends...

My brain is not working anymore!

How stupid of me to suggest this kind of activity! I love sleeping! We should have just retreated to the comforts of our beds and have a good nyt sleep...

BUT THEN...

This night is special (aside from the other nights of twenty questions...). We are able to see each other in a new light...(for you to understand fully of what this entry mean, please refer to "A Boardwalk to Remember" at paulemeric17 .blogspot.com. I don't want to repeat the same entry here...).

Anyway, as I said, we manage to fathom each other one more step deeper. Jemelle really gave me a shock ( similar to how I felt when I heard Shazel rapping...). Well, its nice to know her. Same with Dunn and Michael... especially Michael. For me he has improved since the first day we've met. I remember that first day. We are sitting in the library, and he is as silent as a lamb. Me, being me, tried to break that silence... and failed. Miserably. But last night, he's different, and noisy at last! Dunn, well...uhmmmm...he haven't change a bit, but still he opened up. So much for Dunn, let's go to Emcee. I have such high respect for Emcee. In love, she is so selfless, i can't picture myself in her position. Now to Athena, she's beside me right now and i promised her i'll make her a blog... Now, it's my favorite Lexie. Lexie told me ( actually swear to me) that he won't tease me EVER again with anything regarding aaron.
With the rest, all goes natural (meaning me, roan, and ff... natural means @$#$%^%$)

Now, we are at Anglo, deprive of sleep and coherent thoughts.

I am with FF, Athena, Roan and Lexie right now. It's easy for me, roan and athena to escape from our dormitory, and perhaps Lexie too (kahit saan man sya nakatira...). But what amazes me is FF. He is such a Batingawer! Such nice acting! I think he acted through his phone that he is sick from the corregidor trip (until now!! IT'S ABOPUT 5:11 AM... THE TRIP ENDED ABOUT 4:00). He reasoned that he's too sick, he can't make it to their home. I wish I could tell my mother that...

Anyway, i'm supposed to be sleeping right now coz my brain is not functioning properly... i'll have to make athena her blog...

Ciao!

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i'm just upset,perhaps angry... and i don't know how to say it...

don't know what 2 ryt...

i don't know wat to ryt in here. there are many significant events lately, but i don't seem to mind. So in order for me to remember them, i have to do a total "think-over" of my past week...

Let's start monday...
*sigh* i really can't remember...
tuesday...
i attended the tb rehearsal and found myself late for our dorm devotion. Actually i have totally forgotten about it when ate ids (my roomm8) texted me about it... thanks ate ids! Well, they gave us a bible that night and i am happy about it. Thanks UCCP Dormitory!
Wednesday...
I have no class on wednesday, but i have to meet my classm8s for our reporting at one o'clock. But under certain circumstances, i overslept and i was late... but i managed...
thursday...
All i remembered is me freaking out 'coz my money is abandoning me!!!!!!!!!!!!!
friday...
Well, my money abandoned me completely and i have to withdraw amounting to 500 pesos... i spend it all in one day...
saturday...
we have an activity at 8, i overslept, once again. FF wakes me up by calling my glow-in-the-dark cellphone...
well, today is saturday, my hs friends met me today. We had some fun, and once again lost our money...